A Storehouse of Wisdom

This is my 38th years as a Christian and I feel like I am just beginning to know God, to have a handle of the things of God, and to have a much better grabs of the Word of God – the Word of life. I remembered that for umpteen years haunting questions would flood through my mind; what if there is really no God?, What if Christianity is not the true religion?, What about other religions?, what ifs….

In my heart I could feel the reality of God and his love. I was filled with the Holy Spirit when I was 14 and I have never really missed church or youth camps but yet these questions played havoc in my mind. My Christian walk was up and down – sometimes I acted the way a Christian should and many other times I was not. My faith was like a roller-coaster ride. I could feel for many young people today because I knew I had a heart experience but after a while it doesn’t seemed to connect with my mind and I almost felt I lost my faith once again to the lure and desires of the world. It’s like fighting a losing battle. The pernicious lie that I hold onto for a long time is that it is difficult to be a Christian and I am left to strive for more of God’s grace, God’s love, and God’s power to live an overcoming life.

Why am I telling you all these? I believe that what we feel in our heart must first make sense in our mind. Just a few years ago I started on a quest to “love God with my mind” and since then I have come to understand and to appreciate all that I have experienced in my relationship with God. I no longer have any more doubt about God and His love – they don’t haunt me anymore because I could understand it clearly with my mind. That’s the reason why I firmly believe that every young person needs to be trained in their mental faculty/mind the word of God – not as a storage of information but as a storehouse of wisdom, as an arsenal for frontline spiritual battle for truth, and as a connection between our heart and mind. It gives answers, making sense, to our hearts and vice versa.

The Fight of the Day

Quote from Cal F H Henry:

To live Christianly involves taking a stand for God that calls this world’s caesars to account before the sovereign Lord of the universe, that calls this world’s sages to account before the wisdom that begins with the fear of the Lord, that calls this world’s journalists to account before The Greatest Story ever told. We must strive to reclaim this cosmos for its rightful owner, God, who has title to the cattle on a thousand hills, and for Christ who says to the lost multitudes, “I made you; I died for you; I ransomed you.”

I Actually Graduate – 6 Long Years!

I came back from MBTS Graduation Service about 3 hours ago. I am elated that I finally got a degree! Looking back I had in many times been wondering whether I would ever graduate. The church was kind enough to give me 1 year sabbatical leave to finish my study yet I could not do it and it dragged on for two more years. The last 4 months were hard going, nerve wrenching, and studying into wee hours trying to complete in time to graduate. I guess my sweat paid off tonight.

More than just the degree in my hand is the fact that I have my brothers attending the service and and to see them so delighted for my accomplishment. Our Elders – Dr Yeoh Keat Cheong & Pr Chong Leang were  there at the service too. I have never felt so appreciated before.  We took loads of photos together and I was really thankful when I saw their joy as they rejoice with me and my family.

I thank my wife and children for being there too. At first, I didn’t think much about the graduation service nor was I excited about it UNTIL tonight. I had that feeling of accomplishment. I had that feeling when I saw in the face of my family, my brothers, and Elders their obvious joy for me, Pr Alan, and others too.

Wow…that’s great. So the million dollar question….Am I through with studying?

Well……the answer is NO! I am continuing in my study while serving God, hopefully, more effectively and more “intelligently” in FGA Centre in years to come!!

Nearing the finishing line

Praise God! This coming Thursday would be my graduation! I have finally done it! But I guess I would be going back to MBTS to take up another degree…hoping that I am not dying by degree – haha.

Last Saturday I was worship-leading and I discovered “myself”. Actually it is learning to grow old graciously. I commented to someone that when we were young we could doing many things at the same time. Or that looking at our kids they does multi-tasking. Sometimes I still think I can. I was playing the guitar and leading the worship. My frustration is that when I concentrate on the rhythm I missed the lines or miss the chords. I used to be able to do all that at the same time – now – it’s one thing at a time. I guess I am getting “old”.

That reminds me that I need to take an objective look at my own life once again. It is no longer doing as many things as I can get my hands on but to prioritize them and do just the important ones. I need to stay more focus – to converge into that which is very important. I use to be one of those who would tirelessly do anything and everything for long hours too. But today I find that I need to do the right thing in order to do things right. Wow…that’s profound.

Anyway I am rambling on. My point is …. stay focus, do that which the Lord wants me to do, and do it well. It is no longer the amount of serving but the quality of serving.

Okay…I will update with some of my comment on the effect of postmodernism in later post.