For whatever reason I found myself reading my blog entries in January this year. On January 21 I wrote “Can Losing Weigh be Part of a Christian’s Spirituality?” and the next day (the next entry) I wrote “An Epistemological Delimma.” In those two entries I was trying to rationalize my struggle in losing weight. I argued that knowing the need to lose weight is not enough a motivation even if that knowledge is critical. It takes one to know God who holds our life in His hand – a knowledge that gives one a clear understanding of what it means to live a life that is right in His sight.
Amazing! Months later I woke up with a sharp pain in my right leg and I knew I had gout. Well…I went to see a doctor and took some medication. Within two days the pain is gone and life can go back to normal. Yes? No…in fact, I suddenly felt that I should live my life with better stewardship than I have been thus far. It never dawn upon me that that thought would spark a new journey in my life of faith.
It has been about 6 weeks now that I have completely changed my lifestyle – eat only 1/3 of what I normally eat, sleep early, go to the gym or take a walk with my children, do not overwork in front of the computer anymore, and drink lots of water. I spend more time in personal devotion and prayer. I try not to get easily upset and angry but smile a lot more. Amazing how I came to this conclusion!
Anyway there is still a long way to go for me and I would be lying if I said it has been easy. It is not but I am not giving up except all the tasty hawker food like hokkien mee, char koay teow, beef, mutton, etc. etc. Oh….what’s going on. Before I started on my lifestyle change I weigh 102 kg and now (after 6 weeks) I weigh 97 kg. My gym couch keeps my body weight.
I have to tell you it is not knowing I need to lose weight that motivated me to change my lifestyle. It has to be the hand of the Lord. It is trully a part of my christian spirituality.
