I have been thinking about the whole question of intimacy with God, having a vital relationship with the Lord. What is it? How can one experiences it and knows that and be changed by that? There have been many people talking about walking close with God. Has it got to do with more praying, more worship time, and more reading of God’s Word? Some talk of intimacy like Adam “knew” Eve – such close proximity as of one making love to his wife. How do we come to that kind of “knowing” with God in our relationship. Yes…it is the ideal place to be in BUT HOW, HOW, HOW?
It can be very frustrating trying to wrestle through such abstract conscept which at the same time is also within one’s grasp experiencially. It is definitely NOT illusional but almost paradoxical to even attempt to explain how it works. That’s what I am wrestling with nowadays. Like I said in my earlier blog entries I am on a new journey of faith NOT in finding God but in reality in finding myself so that I could be properly related to God in my relationship with Him.
There are many things that are going on in my mind and in my heart. I am suddenly more aware of my need for God as never before. I am suddenly more aware that after being a christian for the last 39 years to realize that I have yet to know God, to know my Father in heaven – my daddy God. I thought I had gone through a lot of grinding, stripping, testing, and spiritual wilderness in my life just to realize that I am only taking a baby step in the journey of brokenness – “fellowship of his suffering.”
Well….perhaps intimacy has a lot to do with brokenness!!
