First…it’s been more than 1/2 a year now since I wrote anything on my blog. There’s really no reason except that there’s just no inspiration to write anything worth writing. I have been busy watching a lot of movies and TV series over the last 1/2 year. I enjoy this little entertainment of mine so much that I stop visiting my own blog and facebook. Tonight I thought it’s about time for me to get back into writing my thoughts and reflection again.
Let me make a disclaimer: I’m just recording my musings about my life, my faith, and my thoughts as I reflect on His Word, and walking out my daily life as an ordinary person. You don’t have to agree with my thoughts and neither do I need to apologize for thinking aloud!
Here goes my thought ……
I have been spending more and more time watching downloaded TV series. I have spent so much time just doing that I think I might have actually lost focus. I think I need to get back on track again. But how do I do that?
I know I have weekly devotion / cell group materials to write and to prepare, teaching materials for the EQUIP School, etc. etc. but it seems like I have not got much inspiration these couple of weeks. It’s a real madness. I love these assignments but I can’t seem to get it off the ground. Lord, help! One of my thoughts is that the ideas that I have, the subject matters that interest me the most, and the people that I thought should hear what I have to say or read what I have to write are not really interested in it. They either find the subject matter to be too deep (whatever that means) to handle or irrelevant or make any sense.
I was at a church member’s graduation dinner. He attended a seven months bible school class and this is his graduation. I have no real issue with much of what these people were teaching. I only get the feeling that while they meant it good to be more pragmatic in their teaching approach or should I say, learning the ropes of doing ministry, at the same time, they make disparaging remarks that their training is not about theology. The question is: what’s wrong with theology? What’s wrong with a clear understanding of God? Isn’t all learning and education that one has deals directly or indirectly with theology? Even the fact that they teach deliverance, the prophetic, and moving in the Spirit all must have a theological basic for it! If not, what are we learning or where does the source of the knowledge comes from? Sometimes, we never help people to come to grips with the truth of God’s Word – something that can be laid out clearly, systematically, and rationally. We teach, we regurgitate, and expect our students to just swallow it, believe it, and never question it. Many of these people could not even explain themselves clearly how they come to the conclusion of what they are teaching is the truth. They pick it up from someone who picks it up from others. Many of the teachings are so empirical, so sense oriented and experienced based, and so existential. Where is the rationale of it all?
Well – I am musing again. I find that there is such great lack of intellectual discourse in matters of grave importance concerning our faith. All we want to get across to people is “just believe me – I know it – don’t question it”. I think many Christians are so shallow in their understanding and knowledge of God’s Word even with a great repertoire of testimonies and great faith to stand upon.